One of the true joys of summer has to be sugar snaps fresh off the vine.
One of the true joys of summer has to be sugar snaps fresh off the vine.
I don’t generally do “link swaps” and the like on my website. Networking is great for generating traffic to your website, but I am always wary of endorsing other people who I don’t know and trust.
I recently received an invitation to swap links with a site and I was, as always, cautious about it. I spent some time looking over the site and while the content was, on the whole, ok, and purported to be the site of a woman who specialised in sexuality and relationships, it left me feeling like it was just a whole lot of middle of the road articles about sexuality with some occasional BDSM et al spicy stuff thrown in.
I didn’t get the feeling that the site was actually written by one person. More that it was a bunch of sexy stuff, designed to be a little bit titillating without risking anything, that had no personal voice.
I’m pretty sure that the purported owner didn’t write the content. And that’s a problem for me. There was no personal voice. No consistent narrative or view coming through. Just generic “feel good” vibes about sex. A site designed perhaps to drive views and clicks for advertisers rather than to give you real information. And I don’t want to be sending people who read my website to another site just so that they can be “monetised”…
If you have read much of my content then you can probably understand why this would not sit well with me. In everything that I write for this website I try be honest and direct about who I am and what my values are. Some people will like my values, some people won’t – and I think that’s a great way to help anyone thinking about booking me to make the right decision for them.
A website that tries to please everyone so that it can get maximum views rather than provide the best information is not one that I am going to promote. I try to put my readers’ and clients’ best interests ahead of commercialism.
I love the autumn weather in NSW. It really can be just fabulous. Sunny, but not too hot. Good enough to even go for a paddle…
I watched an interview with director Guillermo del Toro the other day and listening to his description of what it takes to be a director resonated with me as a sex worker.
You can see the interview here:
It may seem like a strange comparison, but I think that his first point is spot on – you have to be both resilient and fragile.
In the case of directing film and television a director has to be able to deal with the business of making a film – wrangling crew and equipment, dealing with producers etc. For sex workers, we need to do the job of making the booking happen for our client – organising hotels, travel, safer sex material like condoms and lube, our clothing, hygiene, regular STI testing. The list goes on. There are lots of practicalities, large and small, that we have to stay on top of, all to make sure that when the moment arrives that we meet our clients that we can – as del Toro puts it – “be fragile”.
For a director that means being able to work with their actors (and crew), be sensitive to their needs and to the story. To empathise and to give them what they need to be able to give their best performance.
For a sex worker, we need to be emotionally available, receptive, and responsive to our client’s needs. Some people need their sex worker to be kind and compassionate. To listen and empathise, to be gentle and caring. Others need us to challenge and excite. And many variations between.
We live and work in a strange place of real emotions and responses in a setting where we are being paid for our time. There are inherent contradictions in that situation, but it can’t be faked – especially for a male sex worker for women. This may in part be the reason that there are so few of us that are able to do the job at all, let alone stay in the industry in the long term.
Women want sex just as much as men, so there is plenty of demand for my time and my colleges in the industry. As men we may be good at doing the “resilient” part – but it’s the “fragile” moments that we need to be ready to give to the women who book our services. It’s the fragile moments that make the experience real.
I really hope that 2021 be a better year for all of us!
I’m sorry that I have not been posting regularly here, but you know – 2020…
Seriously though, it was a long year with a lot of personal challenges on top of the insanity of covid-19. Thank you to everyone who booked with me last year, for your support. That made it much easier than it could have been.
I am now back at work after a few weeks off and looking forward to meeting new people and renewing my connection with those I already know.
For anyone who may be wondering – I recently closed down my Twitter account. It had served its purpose (supporting and advocating for the sex work industry) at a time where it was under serious threat in Australia, so it was no-longer needed. I will continue to post here however.
So I want to wish everyone well and I look forward to hearing from you in the future!
I recently had a booking with a woman who (like most of my clients) had never seen a male sex worker before.
She was nervous, but determined and we had a good session together. That evening she sent me the text below (shown with her permission).
It was a nice reminder to me of a large part of why I do this job (besides earning the income that we all need to get by in life). It’s because what I do brings people joy. Not the momentary endorphin hit of a new purchase, but something that lasts for days – and perhaps even a lifetime…
I have always enjoyed the work that I have done (mostly around IT and design), but I can honestly say that while much of it was useful and beneficial to my clients, none of it ever really made a difference to anyone’s life. Not in a significant or lasting way. That work was unimportant to people’s lives.
With sex work though, I feel that although I can only ever see a tiny fraction of all the people in the world, I will, in most cases, make a significant and positive contribution to their lives and their happiness.
And that, I think, is enough.
I wanted to take a moment to say thank you to all of my clients who have made this year such a success and so much fun.
I have been enormously luck to once again get to travel, making films, and enjoying the company of wonderful people – even when it’s only for an hour or two.
You make John Oh the best job in the world and I look forward to another year of exploration, discovery, and fun.
I wish everyone the very best for a safe and enjoyable Christmas break.
A friend swears I look like Jeff Goldblum…
Saturday morning post swim/run bliss…
Just to clarify before I continue – I am not retiring! This post is a celebration of my ongoing experiences as a sex worker and a reflection on the ebb and flow of people from my professional life.
I have been a straight male escort for women and couples for almost ten years continuously. In that time I have met and had the good fortune to spend time with many, many lovely people. It has been a transformative experience for me in many ways. It lead me to a balanced and happy relationship with my sexuality. It made me financially stable and secure. It has allowed me to explore my other passions like photography and film making.
Sex work has been an enormous net benefit to my life.
I like to also think that – based on what many of my clients say – I make a difference to their lives as well.
As a sex worker I am not owed anything by my clients beyond the terms of our booking and the basic respect of any interaction with another person. This means that I give my clients privacy and allow them to dictate things like when we communicate. I am there for them when they need and want me. That’s the deal that I accept and respect as a sex worker.
Clients have come and gone as the years have passed. Some I see just a handful of time, others stay for many years. But because I don’t feel that it is appropriate for me to intrude, when a client moves on with their life I rarely get the chance to say goodbye.
This week saw the last booking that I will have with a client who has been seeing me regularly for almost five years. She is moving overseas, so this is a natural end to our professional relationship. I was lucky in this case, because the circumstances allowed us the opportunity to say goodbye, to reminisce, and to close out a chapter of our lives with smiles, hugs, fond memories, and some tears.
It’s a relatively rare thing for me to have this privilege. I understand that I am not owed it. So when it does happen it makes it even more special.
When it doesn’t happen, I am satisfied with the knowledge that a person is moving on with their life, hopefully with good memories, perhaps with new confidence. Some will have found a partner, fallen in love perhaps. Others have outgrown the need for companionship of the kind that I offer.
But I always feel a little wistful looking back over the last nine odd years and wondering where those people, who I was lucky enough to share a little piece of their lives with, are now.
I hope that they are happy. And I want to say thank you, even if I can’t reach out and say it directly.